restrained
      I've tied my own hands, yet the boss is drawing his gun.  Maybe now is the time to reach for the go key, but I have to choose to untie myself first. That really is a loaded action, the predictions for I'm afraid to face.  That's a long way off action.  I don't means to be subversive, but these are personal struggles, and with any luck you've been down and out the rabbit hole.  You can't teach me, I have to make understand the choices for myself, then I'll be free, and no longer a hopeful success. One could take pride in even the most "peaceful progress".
    
    


